Tango Singapore are looking for musicians to play in an orchestra for our Milonga nights. If you are well trained in musical instruments such as piano, violin, cello, classical guitar, bass, flute or accordion and would like to experience or experiment with Tango music, please email me, tarmidzie@tangosingapore.com by 21 August 2006.
Damn... I can't sleep after what happened last nite... basicly, i'm disgusted, irritated, annoyed and i'm full of anger...
anyway, i'm juz not happy on how people dances during the milonga.. infact some of them are not happy the way i dance too.. but i play within the rules... i dance according to the song... the part where u have to walk... the part when u have to stay, pause, do embellishments.. and 75% of the time, i noticed, people never follow the sense of musicality and do their own predictions or guessing to the flow of the music...
flow of traffic.. last nite was bad... Jc kept on taking long stops at the wrong part of the music. the part where its for him to walk... and our Mr B was taking more than one step against the flow of dance.. i was told by Eduardo, that we can only take one step against the flow of dance.. i) to avoid collision ii) to avoid bottleneck or dancefloor hogging.. making the rest of the people wait for u... that is one of the reason why i'm against doing clockwise movementz... i do that only when the time is right, NO ONE IS BEHIND ME OR THE COUPLE BEHIND IS STILL FAR AWAY FROM ME!! everyone has to play their part in the etiquettes..
YJ.. don't look at me like that again.. I don't like it! best, don't look at me at all.. will appreciate that..
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it is very irritating sometimes to see someone who cannot dance the Tango very well, teaches or guiding the beginners to dance. he can't even dance properly himself but wanted to be smart. HE IS TEACHING THE WRONG WAY OF DANCING TANGO!! STAY AWAY FROM HIM!!! if you want to know who, just ask the ladies... they will tell u the same guy.
usually i'll stop him to do all these but today at the practica, i just leave him alone to guide this girl who ignored me when i said hi to her at MOS. so now, to me she doesn't exist! haha.. let her learn the wrong thing.. thats for ignoring me at the club.. maybe she fell into his sweet talks again as what happen to that freak a few months before. that guy, banned from dancing with my students..
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I have a new addition to my tango partnership.. she will join my current active partners, fonny and lynn.. she is very beautiful and i like her so much.. i really love her in dance and in person.. we have strong chemistry with each other... sometimez i really can't put my eyez off her... tango with her takez me to oblivion... i juz forget i'm on the dance floor...
hopefully nothing stands in the way to break the chemistry apart...
Some guys really has no other method to make me down.. they try every meanz to do it.. they try to pull the girl i'm dancing with into their camp.. enemies are enemies to me, itz good i let the girlz talk to them but if they make any of the girlz go their camp, ho ho ho... i might lose the chemistry in dancing with them and losing chemistry meanz, i will NOT dance with them anymore... that happened many timez already and they don't care at all.. and to those "friends"... just stay away from those girlz... u have to re-learn to be a friend first before doing that...
teach. everyone wants to teach. i was told by tango friends from all over the world, 1) teach only if some people approaches you to teach them, that means to them you are good. 2) teach only if you have confidence to make someone able to dance on the floor after 3 lessons. 3) teach only if you know how to respect the dance floor. you have to differentiate between a tango, valse and milonga. respect the line of dancing. respect yourself. don't make a fool out of yourself by showing off stage skills when everyone else dancing around you. its annoying sometimes when we see the beginners dancing a slow tango to a milonga tune... it just turning off the mood. its worst when they block our way when we dances. as a teacher, we have to tell the difference between the different type of beats. it is a start for them to respect the dance floor. 4) teach only when you are perfect for it. beat sense, emotions, the feel, something that can sweep the girl off her feet by just looking at the way you dance... knowing many steps doesn't make you a teacher. every tanguero around the world see you from how you do your basics. body structure, fluidity, soft leading. if you can't dance the basics properly, off beat, off tune, its better for you to take off that "teacher" tag. i will not support any tango teachers who are under-qualified. it is true we need to get people into tango but with low quality teachers... i guess we are just scarrying them away and cheating them of their money. some visiting dancers told me before, good dancers doesn't mean they are good teachers. best way to see if they are good teachers is to look at their students.
I hardly drivez my mazda nowadayz... first of all.. the fuel prices are high and i'm too lazy to drive in to JB to top up petrol. second, my dad alwayz hijack the car.. he is now hooked on driving.. I met with Daniel Wee at sentosa earlier today. he is now working with a company selling auto accessories and offered me some sport rims for my mazda. the temptation for cheap set of wheels is annoying... hehehe... if i buy the rims, i would have big problems with the finances for my trip to Buenos Aires. and worst he tempt me with free set of Falken ZIEX. dammitz... nah... still tango is my life... no matter what.. i will not touch that money for the car or just anything else.. my passion with cars will not over take my passion with tango... 18th March... i might be driving up to malaysia for some M2 race... donno if my car can make it or not.. by next weekend, i have new setz of denso sparkiez.. might as well try the car for a 6 lap spin...
Why must all dance be associated with being gay? Sad to say, Tango doesn't fall to that category. Most of my friends are worried that I might turn gay cos I dance too much. Enough of those bullshits that people has created to stereotype dancers. I don't really think gays can dance to macho movements in Tango. The love chemistry must be strong, between the man and the woman. I wonder how a gay man would dance 'in chemistry' with a woman. I don't think that will able to happen. That might probably changed the hormones of the gay to become straight. I wrote this cos something happened over in the evening when I went for some 'teh tarik' with a friend whom I've not seen for ages. Met him at the doc's clinic earlier in the day. He was shocked to hear that I teach and perform Tango. And I showed him the pic of me in that Health magazine inside the magazine rack doing Tango (clinic nurse thought I'm bullshitting). His first reaction was "Zie, you turn gay ar?". I was like, "Hey Buddy!! Watch your mouth!"... I am homophobique. I am afraid of being surrounded by gays. Most girls think that Tango is macho but I don't know why guys think it differently. Anyway, next time if a guy thinks I am gay to dance Tango, I will ask his girlfriend or wife to dance with me and make sure she leave him for me!! Like what been said over and over before, 'Male dancers, either they are gay or the good in bed with a woman'.. its so obvious.. i'm not gay.. so i'm the other one.. heheheh
I had a bad week.. really bad week. I lost 3 design projects cos of lack in concentration to work. Things went really bad but tuesday, it was okay cos I made a few young people from NUS to embrace Tango. I really love that feeling. I thought of going to Tango on Friday nite but I don't feel good as I want to avoid that particular someone who is the cause of my bad mood throughout the week. Its common for Tango dancers to find their love partner in the Tango community. But like me, I'm very sensitive as a person. I fall in love with a gal in Tango but she made things difficult for me. Damn.. happened to me many times. Its like magnesium ribbon added to water... FIRE!! itz either fire of desire or fire of destruction. I have good chemistry with her. TOO STRONG!!! anyway, on Saturday, I went for Tango at Royce's and was shocked to see her there. Many people notice the way I look.. I really look unwell but I made sure, I don't ruin the nights of the rest of the people there. Most of them like to see me dance and some will only come to the Milonga party if I will be there. Seriously, she can only dance beautifully with me cos I know her legs really well... no one can do that.... she can't find anyone to dance the Tango like me in Singapore.
My team entertained the audiences at the Esplanade Library with 9 minutes of Tango dancing to the tune of Piazzolla's Concierto para Quinteto on Saturday, 19th of November 2005. I had lots of fun entertaining people with Tango cos it comes out from me naturally. My day was almost ruined after someone ruined my mood the night before and got me feverish. But everything went to plan as I try to overcome that bad mood by focusing on the performance. I lost my white shirt on the day itself!!! I don't know where I put that white shirt I bought not too long ago. In the end, I got my tuxedo inner white shirt with a cummerband. At least I don't want to make Lyman feel down as he will be wearing the only white shirt on the show. Differences between my team and the TangoSingapore troupe is we entertain the audience. We give the audience what they want to see which is, not boring, less of dramatic movements on the Tango but more in the drama of the skit. We put alot of romantic energy in the dance accompanying the song. After the show, I received lots of feedback from friends and audiences, they enjoy ours more. Next project, I'm trying something from Gotan Project. Epoca. Stay tuned for my next performance...
last weekend, me and my partner get 2nd placing during the SPH Citta Bella Tango Competition. Next competition, I will have to work hard to get 1st. The prizes not bad, i got free tix to Bangkok!!! now i need to borrow digicam for my trip..
i really hate some people in Tango.. that is why i ignore them totally. i don't like writing things i hate here but somehow i just don't want to let it go. many people think i'm quite arrogant. and sadly, they are correct about that. my teacher told me to be arrogant, one of the reason i realised that being arrogant is part of being a tango dancer, most tango men i've met who come from other parts of the world are arrogant. only a handful are nice to talk to, some are just here to find tango girls who they can cuddle up in bed later after the milonga or practica but too bad, girls here in singapore are not easy.. i ban such guys to dance with my students.. some people have ulterior motive when it comes to Tango, like some examples in my earlier journals. There is this guy "B"... who thinks he know lots of things about Tango but he didn't realise that he is chirping bullshit all the time. although he is one of the pioneer people who starts the movement here in singapore, i don't give him a damn. i don't like his dancing, anyway, he can't dance open embrace, his posture collapses, his body dips, he don't know how to execute movements.. all the time, he just do close embrace and dance 3km/h on a 15km/h traffic. anyway, those girls who continue to dance with him will never get to dance with me.. most of his girls can't dance..
Many ladies are so pissed with me because I never dance with them. I have lots of reasons why I don't want to dance. One of the reason is that chemistry plays alot of part in my dancing. I only dance with the girls I choose to dance with according to the type of song or the atmosphere. I don't like ladies approach me for a dance. As a teacher, I discourage such acts becos the men are the ones supposed to ask the dance from the lady.. not the other way around. And one big reason is, I don't like dancing with ladies who has bad basics and obviously not one of my students. Its the job of their teachers to correct them. NOT MY JOB!!! If they want me to correct some things in their basics, well, show me the MONEY!! I had enough of other teacher's student who come and ask me why or what or when... Not only the teachers never show the student the proper way of doing the basics, they never teach ettiquette too... some people can dance well but doesn't mean they can teach... Never to ask me to dance with your friend, I will gladly say NO..
Estampas Portenas performed at Esplanade Concert Hall on Saturday, 26th April. I WAS THERE!! i really enjoyed myself last night.. the whole show was outstanding, good showmanship even though they look tired.. its no joke.. 2 back to back shows.. and plus the jetlag.. being at the other part of the world... anyway, i really love the tango band.. i really shed my tears when they played Adios Nonino.. and thank god they came, its like a good marketing part for me.. lots of people who came to watch the show ask if i can teach them to tango.. told them to come down to Bobby Rubinos after the show.. and boy! the restaurant was crowded.. itz like a reunion for tangueros and tangueras... those faces u have not seen for the past few yearz suddenly appears.. hehehe... anyway, would love to see more of this thing to happen.... more Tango shows at esplanade PLEASE!!!!
I've been teaching Tango for 3 years now and just recently, I am able to read body languages while watching people dance. my teacher, Eduardo, told me about it before. now i can see if the guy who dances with the girl is dancing tango or he just there to molest the girl "legally".. i prefer those guyz who like to show off their stepz than to those who just walk around the dance floor with their steps out of beat, with the lady grabbed hard on their chest and dared to say.. "its tango what?!!" dammitz!!! since a few weekz ago, I've made a point to restrict my students to dance with only certain male dancers. and this is a good practice for girls to learn to say NO to men they don't feel like dancing. and at the same time, its a good way to get rid of those men..
I meant flexible timing doesn't mean students being flexible on cancelling class at the very last minute. I teach to feed myself and I'm being very nice to accept the fee on each individual class rather than taking the whole sum on the first day. Please, don't do that kind of thing to me. Missing a class one day is like closing my shop for a day without income.. and worst, someone wantz me to teach her and she didn't turn up on the day after I already paid for the studios on her behalf. I will not talk to her anymore. Its better to be late than never.
I dedicate this song, Remembranza, http://www.educa.rcanaria.es/Usr/Apdorta/cristal/rememb~1.mid (right click it and save) a Tango to one of my 6 singapore partners, Lynn. She prayed for me when I can't sleep and I hope she will be able to go to bed early after her exams finish end of April. We only started to dance together for 2 months? and I've seen so much improvements in her. Thank you for being with me on the stage. I'm a bit cruel.. let her dance her first 2 performances in one day, back to back and I guess it is a scarry ordeal. I would like to thank her boyfriend for his support.
| Remembranza |
Tango (03'28")
Music: Mario Melfi
Lyric: Mario Battistella
with guitars
Singer: Héctor Palacios
Buenos Aires 1937
Odeon 41179 9000/1 |
Lyric:
Cómo son largas las semanas
cuando no estás cerca de mí
no sé qué fuerzas sobrehumanas
me dan valor lejos de ti.
Muerta la luz de mi esperanza
soy como un náufrago en el mar,
sé que me pierdo en lontananza
mas no me puedo resignar.
¡Ah
¡qué triste es recordar
después de tanto amar,
esa dicha que pasó...
Flor de una ilusión
nuestra pasión se marchitó.
¡Ah
¡olvida mi desdén,
retorna dulce bien,
a nuestro amor,
y volverá a florecer
nuestro querer
como aquella flor.
En nuestro cuarto tibio y rosa
todo quedó como otra vez
y en cada adorno, en cada cosa
te sigo viendo como ayer.
Tu foto sobre la mesita
que es credencial de mi dolor,
y aquella hortensia ya marchita
que fue el cantar de nuestro amor. |
first journal after so many months into this multiply thingy. well, life is a bitch and everyone knows that. i miss being myself cos i realise this life i'm living now is like i hop on to someone's car and being someone else. i love being a tango dancer, it takes my soul off most of the time. but where is me? i guess he is in a mental institution or something? i just not myself for the past few years.....
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